HI, and HAPPY NEW YEAR. I wanted to have something super-special for this episode of Feed the Monster, but, that's not going to happen. I just got back from being away for the holidays and I'm winging it. How do you like me so far?
While I don't feel full of resolutions (or at least, not too many), I do feel—shall we say—cautiously hopeful. ("Cautiously hopeful" might actually be my default setting... maybe I should have a t-shirt made). New Year's Day might be "any other day", but for many it's an opportunity to self-reflect and think about the choices they are making in their lives. I'm going to take this opportunity. I've come to a point in my life where it's hard to ignore the fact that I'm facing the last chunk of it. When you have less time ahead of you to play with, your choices start to feel a little more critical.
In her introduction to Shrill, Lindy West says "There are a few simple directives that I tried to lay out in this book: Do a good job. Be vulnerable. Make things. Choose to be kind." I would add to that, choose to be as honest with yourself as you can, and choose to be curious and explore—yourself, your relationships, and the world around you. Choose to turn and face the things that scare you most, because you're the only one who can.
YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO ME, BECAUSE I AM A SHINING EXAMPLE—haha!
And on that note, this is what I have ahead of me in the studio. I ordered a 42" roll of the paper that I like to paint on—BFK Rives 140lb printmaking paper. Before we went away for the holidays I tacked up a large swath of it on the studio wall, to hang there in anticipation until I got back. I got some ideas while I was away.
Without revealing too much (because I know there are legions of people breathless with anticipation over my every move), I will say that my idea involves my vat of torn-up journal pieces (I started going through my journals last year—reading through them and for the most part tearing them up—so that my daughter wouldn't have to do it after I'm dead). Whether or not my idea proves to be "successful" remains to be seen, but I have to start using these journal pieces somehow...
... and I'm kind of excited about the idea I'm going to experiment with. Stay tuned, the multitudes...